will kim

musings on love pt. 1

Sometimes love can make you so weak you feel like giving up. The emotional investment involved and the lack of progress can literally bring you to your knees. But love was never intended to be simple. Love was never meant to be based upon a rate of return. Instead, it was meant to be patient, kind, humble, the rest of the description in 1 Corinthians, and more.

I never believed in the idea of a soulmate. With my limited experience, I still can’t say for certain that there is indeed such a thing. But what I’m learning is that finding a soulmate is one thing, but keeping one is another.

There are many factors that need to balance out in order to feel love. They’re like puzzle pieces that need to fit perfectly to create a picture. Timing, giving each other space but not too much, distance, affirmation, etc. are some of the seemingly infinite factors that play into love. With such an array of factors, perhaps being able to attain a workable balance means that you have found your soulmate.

They say love is all about persistence, but it’s much easier said than done. With 24 hours in a day, it’s difficult to feel constantly secure about love during the approximately 16 hours we are awake. Our human minds are endlessly running back and forth, frequently leaving us questioning our emotions.

But when I think of persistence, I think of water in liquid form. This miracle element is so simple yet essential to life. As a liquid, water’s shape morphs based on its needs. This is due to the weak hydrogen bonds that allow it to be flexible in any situation. The seemingly weak bonds of liquid water that joins its molecules are the very reason water is so effective.

Love must resemble this. It must be able to split when falling through cracks in order to get where it needs to and this can only be done in weakness. Because love must go on forever, sometimes it will feel weak. This seems paradoxical, but this will provide an eternal love. A solid love would be foolish, not allowing flexibility and a gaseous love will fall apart, but a liquid water love will be persistent, allowing it to form rivers and caves. Even if there are only a few drops falling, it can have lasting effects given a long period of time.

Ultimately, our love must resemble God’s love. God’s power is made perfect in weakness, not strength. And if God’s power is love, love is made perfect in weakness.

Have mercy on me, O God, according to your steadfast love; according to your abundant mercy blot out my transgressions.

The moments when dreams leak into reality.

Even through trials and tribulations, when I see your face, it’s gonna be worth it all.